Surprise!!

This is the second time in my life that I have felt like I am really not in control. We are expecting child #3 at a huge surprise for us since Trace is only 14 months and I was trying to prevent this from happening. When I think of the reality of two children under two in diapers constantly needing my attention..... I get a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach and wonder if I can do this? The other part of me says God would not have sent me this blessing if I could not handle it. Being that I was trying to prevent this from happening and it happened anyway... must mean that it is meant to be. For all of you reading this come July first you may not see me for approximately 2-4 years unless you come to my house to see me. I just can't imagine going out with three children and only two arms. Carson will go to school next fall so that will help with my outings. Carson says in his prayers every night that I am having two girls so I hope that he is right with the girl part...the two part??? would be nice in about eight years but extremely difficult for the next four. We will be happy with a healthy baby and mother.